Ok...this is my first blog and visit to this site.  I have been looking for a way to express my grief.  I thought this site was a way to tell people how I feel, that can understand better then most people.

 I'm 24 and I've lost both my parents.  I lost my dad when I was 17.  He was murdered and his killer was never caught.  At the time, I thought that was going to be the hardest thing I would ever have to go through.  My dad and I were best friends.  He was there for everything in my…