My husband of 20+ years was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer on May 18, 2013, he went to live in Heaven on June 7, 2013.  I have such a void, an emptiness that I' not can ever be filled.  We were planning to renew our vows in September.  It was so sudden and came out of no where.  Everyone seems to think I should be over it ... what does that even mean?  I still cry everyday and I miss him so much.  I feel cheated - God has kept me going.  I go to work, I cry - I drive home, I cry - I eat, I…