I can't believe how lost I feel these days. I have never felt like this before. I have always been the strong one who holds everybody up, but now I feel so broken and the one person who was able to hold me together is the person I'm missing so much. For the last 17 years he was the person I could depend on no matter what, even when we were apart from one another and got a dissolution he was still there whenever I needed him. Those that knew either of us well were not surprised when we…