Hi  My son died almost 4 years ago at the age of 20.  Some days I feel like its not such a big deal and others I am overcome with sadness and I feel I want to die along with him.  The sad reality is that its something I will have to live with forever.  The sadness doesnt go away and I miss him everyday.  I spent lots of time helping my other children to grieve and i dont think I did it myself!  I have a hard time going to weddings even today because he was engaged to be married and when…