Yes there is no history but remember the years and years of talks and that is your history for you.  Its real tough as for me I just survived the anniversary.

Dear Pushpa,

I just read a post you made back in February. I am so sorry I missed it. This is what you said, "

Comment by pushpa on February 25, 2015 at 7:50am

I lost faith in God. My mom was brutally assaulted in her room, for the next 40 days we kept praying, begging to GOD. "God is testing your faith", I was told. And then she just died..... God was not there when she needed him the most."

     I wonder why you were told that God was testing YOUR faith? What did they mean? I have sat here thinking about what they may have meant. The only thing I can come up with, since I do not know this other person nor their background of Bible knowledge is this: God was with your mother but her injuries may have been far worse than you knew. It is possible that the merciful thing for your mom was for her to fall asleep in death and remain in God's memory until the resurrection.

     Now to put faith in this analogy you would have to first understand and believe that God IS NOT the cause of death. Second you would have to understand that the Bible teaches that death is like a deep dreamless sleep. Third you would have to believe in the promises of God in the Bible to make the earth a paradise and get rid of ALL wickedness. Forth you really need to know that God has appointed Jesus as King of his Kingdom government and given him the power to resurrect ALL those who have died. Once you gain a knowledge of all of these things your faith will be firm as a rock. You will also look forward to the time of your mother's resurrection so you can live in paradise with her forever.

     Please allow me the opportunity to show you these things in the Bible and to be your friend.

Brenda

Hi Pushpa what you need to do now is to do what I did.  Keep recollecting the history of the last few years from now for those months where you have no history.  For example I am simulating the time spent in Feb March 2013 now and it makes me feel a bit better.  And that way we always a history.  History is not necessarily of the previous year but the years (ALL) spent together so lots of stuff to think about. 

Pushpa, I am sorry about your mother. I can not imagine how hard that must have been and still is for you. I lost my mother the day after you lost yours ( March 3, 2014). I am praying for you because I know that the first anniversary is very tough. 

Pushpa, thank you for your words. I very much agree indeed! Not knowing-all of it makes it tremendously awful. Having it all immortalized by the news stations who covered it live in my case-is horrific....My mom braved severe health issues for a few years and she certainly was suffering and than it is a unexplained brutal fire that took her away from this world. I just can't make sense of any of it and I am so so sorry for what you have experienced. I was always worried for my mom because she was so kind and too trusting-I fear and feel this contributed to her death. Again, my deepest condolences to you for enduring such a deep trauma.