i live in new jersey,i have 2 twin sisters and a brother and I also have an older sister but we dont talk since she blames me for my son's death..it must be hard on you to deal with by urself but like i said u r not alone,fred will always be with you and there are alot of people on here who understand how u feel

do u have family? what about his family? and even if u dont have them u have all of us here so u r not alone,where do u live? when my son was 1st murdered everyone turned there back on me,they blamed me for being so blind but even though now it isnt that way with out my son i too feel alone,even though i am lucky that god gave me a 2nd chance i was 5 weeks pregnant with that bastards baby,but i have a beautiful baby boy who will be 1 next month,if it wasnt for him and my other kids i wouldnt be where i am today..

your welcome..sometimes if u try too hard to feel him or too hard to dream with him it doesnt happen...it is when u least expect it that it will pop up..i used to get upset when people would tell me they dreamt with my caden when i cant..but its when u least expect is when u get surprised...they say time heals all wounds and too me it just gets harder but for some people it can be that way