Hello!! just  lost the love of my life,  my partner, my heart, she just died 1 month before her birthday (37) i'm devastating i don't know what to do with my life , was a sudden lost, just one morning she woke up to go to the restroom, come out and faint, she died in my arms, god knows the panic, helpless a person can be seen your love's life extinguish in your arms while you call 911 yelling at the operator at top of your lungs feeling your loved one life going away, worst feeling ever, after is like a dream, everyone asking if they can help? (hate those words) how i'm doing? a lot of people doesn't know how much of good try of make you feel better can make you fee worst, can't sleep, once i seep can't woke up, just dreaming the day (i hope) see her again, I'M NOT planning to go all the way, once i'm done with all the staff that is pending like our kids don't need me, People say you have to move on the only reason I still here is because I promised my family that I will, but there's no way I will choose to live for years -- if god don't take me, eventually I will try to