Haniyyah

I am so sorry for your loss. I have lost  3 children. Two in the womb and my 17 year old son 2 years ago. One child was early in the pregnancy but I lost my daughter Emily Rose at 5 months during my pregnancy. It was devastating. There are specific grief support groups just for your sad experience. try to see if you have a local chapter of the Compassionate Friends. It is a national organization and they have a sub-group for pregnancy and infant loss. It is different and carries it 's own unique challenges. There may be one on this site also I'm not sure. Know this, your child is okay and their spirit lives on as does the love between you does. And though you will mourn him or her forever, you are so young that I hope you can go on to heal to the point that you can have other children when you feel ready. I know that horrible feeling of feeling so consumed with life during pregnancy and then to have that baby die inside you. I felt like a tomb. In your case - the horror of the stillbirth. I would recommend getting counseling  also if you can. But we are here for you and understand how devastating it all is. You can express what ever you need to safely and know that you are not alone. Also there is a Compassionate Friends facebook page you can go to right now.