Hi edie, you and I have a lot in common. I lost my wife in February 2013. From breast cancer. After a extended fight with the disease. As you can image, it was a very hard struggle for her. In the midst of all this. My precious Mom who already had COPD, caught pneumonia. Hospitalized for some time. Came home with encephalopathy (brain damage). Had to be on oxygen all the time. My father and her in their 80s. Had to have my daily help. Shopping, cooking, medicines management, Doctors appointments. Being a only child has its drawbacks sometimes. Mom passed away July 2014.  So with in a year and a half. I  lost the two people that I love most in the world. I have had a very hard time adjusting. My life is nothing like it once was. I am so lost now. The memories of both their terrible suffering haunt me. All my wife's and my future plans for our  early retirement now gone. It is so hard. Impossible to accept, I had to give my perfect wife up. In my mid fifties. I am a widower. It's just not fair. I am so sorry for your loss. I think I can identify with the pain you are experiencing. This is a wonderful web site. There are people here that are also enduing horrific pain from losing loved ones. Please know that you are not alone. Others like me are walking the same path that you have been forced to take. We can help each other.  I will certainly keep you in my prayers.