So very sorry for your losses, Zane.  And now, like me, your having to deal with your dog's illness and loss, as well.  My precious dog is ill with heart disease.  Even though she hasn't passed yet, I joined the group on here "Loss of Pet".  It helped just to be able to write about her and my impending Bereavement.  I urge you to look into that group. Our pets are important too!  There is a helpful link in one of the blogs.  Wishing you peace and comfort...