Thank you Wendy. I agree, im not even sure if it will ever get better. Its the learning to live with this heartache thatin every turn our lives take, will visit us often & continue to dig deep into our wound. I know how hard it is with our children, but its okay to allow them to see us weep & hurt. It teaches them how to express themselves to us, show compassion to others & face the realities of painful moments life brings.But yes, as Motherless daughters we too want to protect them . Im sure your Mom is smiling proud upon you....even though you dont feel strong...those dark days when you just dont want to do anything,,,except maybe catch up on your emotions, or even run from them and bury yourself deep under the covers. Yes, we manage to function,,,even though it doesnt feel like we are. Muster up a smile for someone,,just to please them,,because deep down inside we are still bleeding. My prayers are with you and your family Wendy. We are only at the beginning. Have patience with yourself.(better said than done huh) I appreciate your comfort. Peace be with you. Ps. Beautiful pics of your beloved Mother!!!!