cancer is such a horrible thing it hurts like hell when you know a loved one hasn't got long and there is nothing you can do the only thing is be there to support them and be strong for them but once they have gone it is so much harder you don't know what to do you don't know a normal life anymore I looked after my sister for four years while she battled cancer and sadly passed away may last year but I know people like yourself and everybody else who has lost someone to cancer can get some little comfort from this site to know you r definitely not alone and that we must get through this together even if it just to put your feelings down just to know it is one step at a time