Dear Thomas,

I also lost my darling Mother - Nancy to cancer June 6, 2011. My 3 sisters are not what I would describe as healthy, loving sisters. I am so different from them. It's hard for me to understand their actions. I have been so blessed by the friends I have found on this site. I feel I am a true support system now. My mom was my everything. She was always there for me. I cry, I pray and I do the best I can to make it through each day. I feel empty and sad all the time. I will share with you that praying and putting yourself in Gods hands is what keeps me from truly being empty and alone. I miss mom constantly...she is always in my thoughts. I see her suffering from the radiation and cancer. That is hard to get out of your head isn't it? It's just me, my dog and 3 cats now living here in Florida. A sunny day goes without being notice these days...food is tasteless. I go to work...a nice distraction. But when I get home....just as lonely as can be knowing I cannot pick up the phone and call her...to make plans for the weekend. She was my weekend warrior at the shopping mall. Movies..dinners out. I understand your emptiness..we all do. We are adults...but still children. My dad left us when we were kids...he died 4 years ago we heard. I am here as your friend. Hugs Sue