Tammy~A huge welcome to this web site.  I have met some wonderful people here.  We are all grieving.  I lost my huband on December 3, 2010.  This is a long, painful and lonely journey.  You can't do it alone.  Friends who aren't experiencing the pain of widowhood aren't much support.  Come here for support and comfort.  We are all in the same boat.  Sometimes it feels like the boat is sinking~we feel like we're loosing our minds.  It really sucks but we have to get through it.