Hi Stephanie~Welcome to online grief support.  We are all in the same boat.  I lost my husband on December 3, 2010.  I've never lived on my own in my entire life.  I have a grown son, daughter, and three beautiful grandsons.  My husband was my entire life.  We have a very close family byt something is now missing.  There's a huge void in all of our lives.  I feel like I'm 18 years old again venturing into life on my own.  I've met some wonderful people on this site who are a great support.  We have to stick together.  I'm making small progress but this morning I woke up sobbing into my pillow.  It's a roller coaster ride ~ that's for sure.