Yes, sometimes I marvel at how I am able to just get through the day let alone the really hard days like holidays and birthdays, etc. Thinking back I am still not sure how I have made it this far.

When they told me that my mother was gone, I remember screaming and collapsing and being caught by my husband before I hit the ground. I then remember just whispering the word "no" for days afterwards. But somehow I was able to get up each day, make food for my family, feed myself, write a eulogy that I said at her funeral. It's honestly sometimes like I don't know how I go on, but I do. I guess that's the main point though right? We keep getting through it somehow, like you said.

Hi Sandy,

Thank you for your kind words last Friday. Somehow, my family and I made it through this past weekend. We honoured her in our own ways but we also hid as a family. Everywhere you looked or went there was mother's day stuff going on - so we simply stayed in.

The few times we did go out, it seemed that each of us had a negative experience. My own being that I had perfect stranger, very kindly come up and wish me a "Happy Soon-to-be-a-Mother Mother's Day". I thanked them and then got quickly ushered out of the store by my husband as I was on the verge of crying.

I hope you survived the weekend in any way you could.

Maddy

Dear Sandy,

I am deeply sad to read about the tragic accident that took your wonderful Mom. Your brother....so sad. You will find so much support here on this site. I have experienced my own hell here on earth. I have learned to take 1 hour at a time. Nothing more. I try to be the best person I can be in honor of my Mom. She was all I had in the world. I look forward to joining her and my other loved ones in heaven. I am an animal lover too. I have a great Golden Retriever and 5 rescued cats. Your mom is with your brother. He must have needed her so God let her go and be with him. Your loss is gigantic my friend. One hour at a time. Your friend Sue