Sandy- I too feel empty. I'm exhausted but I cannot sleep. But I have to get up at 4 AM in the morning to do my job. I'm stuck in this nightmare that I cannot escape. Every morning when I wake up I remember what he used to say to me –" turn off the alarm, don't hit the snooze"-"I'll wake you up in 10 minutes." And he always did.

And that's what I say out loud to myself every morning when that stupid alarm goes off and then I realize....I am alone.