I am so sorry about your situation.  Losing your husband is rough enough....but to have your perception of him challenged now, when you need your good memories to make it thrust life just seems cruel. You need to surround yourself with people you love and trust, at least until the shock of his death wears off. 

Feel free to rant here.    We all suffered loss. We all have different stories. But we support each other in ways no one else can.