I am so sorry to hear of your tragedy . . .  Still, I am glad that you found this website because you will need support as do we all. Please feel free to pour your heart out. We all have experienced tragedies that affect us to our very core.

Here is a quote from a brochure that has helped my family:

"Talking can be a helpful release. Following the death of all ten of his children, as well as some other personal tragedies, the ancient patriarch Job said: “My soul certainly feels a loathing toward my life. I will give vent to [Hebrew, “loose”] my concern about myself. I will speak in the bitterness of my soul!” (Job 1:2, 18, 19; 10:1) Job could no longer restrain his concern. He needed to let it loose; he had to “speak.” Similarly, the English dramatist Shakespeare wrote in Macbeth: “Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak whispers the o’er-fraught heart and bids it break.”

So even if you can't talk yet, pick up a pen and paper and write. If you would like to read the whole brochure you can do so on line at the following link: When Someone You Love Dies

Additionally you can listen to the brochure read to you in many languages at this link: When Someone You Love Dies

Brenda

(Isaiah 41:10) "Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be anxious, for I am your God. I will fortify you, yes, I will help you, I will really hold on to you with my right hand of righteousness.’"