My mom died 4 months ago
My mom had pulmonary fibrosis. She was sick for a few years. It was funny how when my grandmother smoked, my mom would always say-I’m gonna die from second hand smoke. My mom never smoked. She died from lung disease. Ironic.I was fine at the funeral. Planning. Talking to everyone. I thought u handled it great. Now 4 months later, I’m a mess. Some days I’m perfectly fine, but others I can’t walk down the street without crying. I keep thinking that I haven’t talked to her in a while & I…See More
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Pamela I am so sorry for your loss. In 2010 my 34 year old son died. The sharp razor edge of this pain does ease over time and getting from one minute to the next gets easier. Don't worry about what you cant do right now. Instead focus on what you can do. As to the how many children question, you will ALWAYS be a mom of three sons. If you feel like adding that one got his angel wings then do, if not, that is ok too. Give yourself permission to take any and all steps forward at your own pace. It was the greatest gift I have ever given myself. I do not think I would be in the place I am now if I had not learned that early on in my grief. Take care. I know you will find comfort and understanding here.
Pamela, you are NOT alone.. I pray that you find some measure of peace as time goes by. I have released that whatever you feel at the moment is ok so don't think about why you can't look at his picture etc. For a long time I would spend days reading and re-reading our chats and feel close, then suddenly, I wouldn't go near his pics and some days I would tell him, I am not going to think about it... its all ok, there really are no 'should s'.. I find this group the most supportive and empathetic and it has helped me deal with my loss as all are going through the same horrifying days. I welcome you with open arms and please post and share whatever you want. It DOEs help..love to you.