I am so sorry Neil. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. I can't believe how quickly it was from when she was diagnosed to when she passed away. I am so so sorry. What kind of cancer did your wife have? I lost my mom (she was 55) to lung cancer in January. She had never smoked a day in her life, but somehow got lung cancer. Go figure and by the time they diagnosed her it was stage 4. She fought hard for almost 2 years with rounds and rounds of horrible chemo and radiation but sadly lost her battle on Jan 22. I am not sure what it harder loosing someone as quickly as you did or watching someone deteriorate the way I had to see my mom do. Lets just say either way just flat out sucks! I am sure your kids are probably around my age. I am 32. Its a young age to lose your mom and like you and your kids, I am sure you are sad your wife isn't going to be around to see your grandkids grow up. I have an almost 6 year old daughter that my mom adored and a 2 year old she barely got to know and I am pregnant with baby 3. It is very hard w/out her here. I think the best advice I can give you or thing I can tell you is you are never going to get over this (no amount of time will make it better in my opinion) but hopefully we will learn to cope better. Feel free to vent anytime. I am here if you need an ear. Hugs and prayers to you ((())K