Mark,  You are in such an early stage of grief.  A time when getting out of a bed takes all the energy you have in the world. A time when the crying just comes at you from every angle.  Each of us starts this journey wondering what has happened to us.  As it goes on each of us try to find ways to cope.  How successful we are varies.  I have watched myself try to cope and there have been a few successful days but overall I still grieve deeply.  

I wish none of us had to come here to share our story of loss.  I feel surrounded by hurt.  I don’t understand how I missed the hurt when I was alive and vital with my husband.  How did I not see how badly others were suffering. 

The best I can do is take each moment and try to see what I can do.  No routine, no job, no real sleep and patching together food has become a sad place where I keep trying to improve myself but I find it so slow and so disillusioning.  I guess my only offering is that I am so sorry you have had to endure the loss of your wife and I hope you find ways to cope.

morgan