Just wanted to go into detail more than I did initially. My husband was an alcoholic for all the years we were married.  I guess the hardest thing for me to get thru is the anger I feel because he chose alcohol over me.  He left me in such a mess, with two businesses and money he'd spent that I had no idea he had. Don't get me wrong, we loved each other immensely. I miss him more than I ever knew was possible to the point of contemplating ending it all because I am so overwhelmed.  It's been two months now and I don't think things are better.  Besides going into deep detail, I had to have my loving dog and friend put to sleep yesterday.  It just seems like the pain never ceases.  Looking for any advice or help anyone can offer.