I feel numb and almost disconnected from the rest of the world.  I put up our tree about 15 minutes ago and needed to walk away from it.  I still have to put the lights on, but it the tree was something my mom did every year.  I thought this year I would just be "filling in".  I know I have to keep going for my daughter, but it's so hard.  I'm also finding it hard to accept condolences from people who haven't lost a parent (especially a mother).  I know they mean well, but...