Hi Maddie, I loss my mom too. July 22,2014. I also lost my wife from cancer February 2013. My life has changed so much. I too am basicly alone. My dad is 84 and not much help. We had no children. I have some distance Cusions. But they have their life and live 400 miles away. A couple of friends. But they are just not the same as family. I have our 2 cats. They are company to me. But only pets. I think being alone makes grief worse. I am 56 about 6'3" weight 225. However being all by myself is frighting. My life has changed so much from what it once was. The 2 people I love most in the world gone now. I hope that knowing you aren't the only one is some comfort to you. My hope for you is that you will get out. Church or actives. Meet prople, find others, that will care about you. We have to findvthe courage to go on somehow.