Lori I tried to reply to your comment but for some reason the reply to link was not there. I will try and think like you and try to only focus on the all the good times we spent together and all the good times we had. Thankfully we both have wonderful memories forever to remember. I guess I've just been feeling selfish, instead of focusing on all the good we had I'm just focusing on what I don't have anymore. Hopefully I'm getting my car back tomorrow so I can make an appt. for counseling and can finally get into some grief support groups. Lots of Hugs to you. And thanks so much for your thoughts.