Libby, I am so very sorry. Everyone does grieve differently -I apparently am doing similar to you in that department...Please don't feel you are the only one 'going crazy'. My mother and I spoke all the time-several times a day-she was my rock in every way; so I can relate to that reality. Still, Libby- you can not rush yourself to heal. I am in no way close to healed-every day can be a battle-at times every moment even. This is a very good forum to assist in those moments-however frequent or on your 'good' days as well. My mom had just turned 63 1 month before her death. I have lost my grandparents, my very 1st boyfriend and others-still, losing my mom is very different. 

Warmest Regards~