It has been almost a year since I have lost both of my parents three months apart. Clearly nothing will ever be the same. I am forever changed. I now have no family on my side. I do have two brothers but they are impossible to have anything to do with. One being a biker want to be. And the other being so full of himself. It's ridiculous. I have my own family. But everyone else has Moved on from the deaths. Except for me. I am still as devastated and alone even among my own family. I have lost everything. My brother owns the parents house which was with the family business. So I'm not allowed to take anything of my parents as keepsakes. My other brother lives in the house now with his live in girlfriend so she has everything of my parents. You can see where this is going. Not good. Needless to say I'm done with all of them. I am alone. Christmas is soon here. I have no idea how to move forward. I am stuck and cany get out of this rut. I'm
Not sure how to move forward. I die a little more every day. I even had to purchase the marker for my parents graves myself as my brothers didn't care if they had one. They are jerks !!
I need to move on but not sure how. No one understands how I feel and I still have tears every day.