Oh you poor poor women.
From the bottom of my heart I am very sorry for your loss. No mother should have to experience what you are going through. You need to lean on your children and grandchildren. Animals to help you feel better. My mother passed away in September and there are times I feel like I can't go on. But my son helps and my animals help. I know it's not the same but know that you are your children's works. They need you so much. I am your sons age. My life will never be right without my mom. She was my best friend my counselor. She just always made me feel right again. You are that still for all of your kids. I hope they found the garbage that hurt you're family so much. God Bless you honey.