I dont know how to cope with the loss. It's been a month and I still cry every night that I remember him.I saw his lifeless body when they were rushing him to the hospital, hoping that maybe he was still alive, and I dont think I'll get it out of my head anymore.I feel a lot of regret. I can only think of I wish i had done this/that, but it's too late. He's gone.I blame myself a lot for not seeing the signs, for not being by his side when he felt so hopeless that he decided to do that.I still…See More