Julie, thank you for leaving your comment on my wall. I can't tell you how much I needed to connect with someone who understands this horrible lonely thing we are living with. Waves of grief describe me very well. Out of nowhere for reason at all I will bust out in tears that I cannot control. I went camping with my husband, his gang and my son this past Memorial Day and had a really good time then late Summer day evening I was sitting in a lawn chair and watching a mom and her toddler a d I completely fell apart thinking about the circle of life a d how quickly life passes us by. It's hard to talk to my can't about it. I want tl share with my sister and ask her about her feelings but she can't talk about it. She gets a lite mad at me a d that's hard too because she is the closest person to mom I have left.I miss everything about mom and I'm struggling with the finality of it all now. Thank you for reaching out to me. I'm glad you're here. This site is wonderful