Its a long time to have your brain wired to someone else's.  I find I am still struggling pretty much daily, sometimes moe severe than others.  Right now I am going through having to pack up and move from one place I lived to another and this is the second time.  Of course everything I touch has his aura and so breakdowns are rolling onto of me about every couple hours.  Everyone says that once I get done with this last and final move putting all my worldly belongings in one place I ca try to sift and sort through better.  I question it but I keep moving along mostly in the hope I will be taken to reside wherever my husband might be.  I want to know why and where but with no answers to either I just mope through days.  Its a bitch the way I see it but do we really have a choice.  None that have come to me......