Hi Jennifer, I am so very sorry for all your losses. You are an inspiration to be able to even put one foot in front of the other after so many losses. Please be kind to yourself, do what you can do and don't put too much pressure or expectations on yourself. I too have suffered many losses, my mom was 35, dad 47, brother 38, two sister in laws one 31 and the other in her 40s, aunts, uncles, nephew 25 and the most recent and painful loss is my son, Zach who died in a horrible accident on September 3rd, he was only 23. I don't know how we go on from this, but you are showing me that it can be done. Those of you who are on here who have suffered many losses, but continue on one day at a time, show us that it can be done. I have a friend, who after her only child was murdered, told me she had to make a decision to either give up or be a survivor. I have chosen to be a survivor too, some days are easier than others, but I know my son would want me to try to be happy again. You are in my prayers. Big hugs. Robin