Jane,

Those were the questions I have asked as well. It seems like decent people that cares are the ones always suffer the most. Its almost like a curse to be caring and loving people. I just had a dream and saw my wife. In my dream I've called to check to see where she was. She didnt pick up the phone and texted me back instead. She said "lol im at the mall". I was worried and startled then woke up only realized it was a dream. I know exactly why I had this dream. It is because deep down I still can't accept what happened and that it was a replay of that night. Each time that I dream of her and then woke up only to be more dissapointed. It's more painful to wake up after such dreams knowing I've fallen deeper into the a bottomless hole. My heart beats faster and heavier. This pain is too much.

Hollowed