i'm so sorry holly.yes it is so lonely.in a world so packed with people,its hard to believe so manny of us are completely alone.my heart goes out to you,and i wish u comfort.~hugs~

Hi Holly,

How are you holding up?  I just read through your comments and want you to know that you're not alone.  Reach out directly and message me or reply to my comments  - I would love to hear more about Heather and know how you are doing.  The holidays were hard on me too.  You are definitely not alone.

Hold on.

-Wendy

Holly so sorry for your loss. Heather is a beautiful young lady.  Thank you for sharing pictures with us.  Thinking of you and all of us who are bearing this awful grief.

Hi Holly, thanks so much for writing back. I am going to the Compassionate Friends group world wide candle service for those who have lost a child tonight. I keep going to as many things like this to try and help me cope with my grief. I don't know about you but it will just hit me, even when I am out in public now. Before, I could usually hold myself together during the day because I would keep busy, but trying to do the holiday stuff is so hard. I was out the other day buying something for my preschool class, and bought a couple of little things to put in my granddaughters stockings and it hit me that Zach wouldn't be there to get his stocking stuff this year. We had a family vacation last year at this time, and had planned to do it again this year, my husband was getting ready to put the deposit in the mail the day Zach died. I just keep thinking how excited we all were last year, and excited to do it again this year. To have all of us together for a few days of family fun, it breaks my heart when I think that he will never be there for any of our family fun. I try not to think about the things that Zach will not be at again, but sometimes it creeps back in. Do you find yourself doing the same thing. I miss him so much. Thank you for being there for me, and I will be there for you too. Big hugs and prayers. Robin