I miss my mum.  I was close to her, the rest of my family are not easy going like she was.  My two brothers both have mental health problems, one is depression due to too much drinking and past drug use.  My sister is only focusing on her problems with kids.  She doesnt seem to have taken it as hard as me, even though she is younger.  She doesnt seem to see the loving perfect kind caring giving person my mum was.  My dad has always been hard to interact with.  Even though he does seem to miss my mum a great deal.  Even though he didnt treat her with the respect she deserved.  She always said she d got used to it and that he was a good man and hard working.  She was so forgiving.   So anyway, I feel very lonley except, i do have three kids.  One left home though six years ago to be with her boyfriend and i have a fifteen yr old son and six year old daughter, who is alot like my mum really, very loving and understanding for her age, but i try to hide the tears alot, although she has seen me cry quite alot since i lost my mum mid august 2010.  Even my son has put his arms round me and made me a cup of tea, even though before that he has been a bit of a hand ful he is really a loving kid and he has shown this afew times recently.  I do wish i could have a better relationship with my sister though, who doesnt even ring me but rings brothers and dad, even though i let her stay for a few weeks to help her with her son and let her cry on my shoulder.  I feel she doesnt care about me.