You should join a group. I found one for grandchildren. There is only one member, but you could probably be great support for each other and talk about what happened. I find this very therapeutic for me. I hope it helps you too. The name of the group that I started is Loss of a child In memory of my son or daughter. You are welcome to join it too if you would like. I am the administrator over it and it is relatively new, so there are not many members yet.