Hey Debbie. I am so sorry to learn of yet, another tremendous loss. i am still suffering from the loss of my 21 yr old son. He was riding his friend's motorcycle on a residential street, he was chased and rammed into an oncoming car. I can feel your pain as I read your words, I am definately crying with you along with all the other unfortunate parents that have had to bury their children. None of this will NEVER be "ok"......how could it? I too am tormented by the thoughts of anger, pain and fear my son must have had just before he flipped off of that bike. I was told by witnesses that lived on that street that my son was on the ground holding his chest and kicking his legs around. I was told he loss consciousness shortly after arriving to the E.R.. My son was there for 30! hours before any of of knew where he was, they brought him there as a 'John Doe', I was told that he didn't have any ID on him. Me and my son were robbed of his life after being in ICU for 1 week.  I also feel like I died with my son, the joy I once had is gone, me having other children does not fill the void of losing one. There is no greater pain than this. I am so angry at the world sometimes for going on without my son, my children are my world. Our sons will ALWAYS be our sons, they will always be our babies!! They had a life, they are not just a "MEMORY".

You may want to join the group "Missing Our Sons and Daughters" on this same site. I am also a member, it's so important to have your feelings validated and not judged.

Once again, I am sorry that you have come to know this pain. Many hugs to you.