Darlene

I'm sure tomorrow will be a very hard day, as well as Monday. I know that we all have to go through that first year of "firsts" without our love. First birthday, first Christmas, first anniversary. I know that as Father's Day approaches I am so sad at the thought of my kids spending it without their dad. I am ordering each of them a photo book with pictures of them and their dad and will give it to them on Father's Day. We will spend the evening together in honor of keeping the traditions that we worked so hard to build, but it will be beyond sad. It's hard enough to just get through a regular day without him.

Today I tried to decide what to have engraved on his stone, and it is just hard. How do I tell his story in just a few words. The woman that did Jim's eulogy said she had heard many times that someone was "larger than life" but that with my husband, it was the first time that she believed it. He was the first person that everyone turned to with their problems, and the first person to find away to make someone's life easier, or better. How do I fill those shoes, for all of those people.

I hope you can find a way to get through the next two days with a little bit of happiness remembering the love you shared and the memories you have.