Aloha Dalana,  I am so sorry to hear of the death of your husband as having lived on Maui previously I feel a special connection to the spirit of Hawaii and how your spirit is now enduring grief.  One of my husbands and my favorite songs was sung by Iz.  "somewhere over the rainbow"  I wish I could explain in words how rainbows appeared for me during his passing but it would take too long.  I can just hope that the power of the spirit which is very powerful were you live will bring you some signs and some rest from the struggle of losing your beloved.  

You are in the earliest of stages of how grief will be affecting you and staring at his picture and crying is just the beginning but hopefully your "family" will hold you tight and give you the support you are going to need.  Take care and know our beloved soulmates are watching over us.