Other than wishing I could have him back, which I know isn't possible, I just need to figure out how to get on with each day. Every single day seems worse than the day before and I just don't know how to do it. I miss him so very much, and when he left a very very large part of me went with him. I have to force myself out of bed everyday for my 14 year old daughter still living at home. But there has to be a way that I can do this without spending 24 hours a day wearing a fake mask to cover the way I feel. There has to be a way to start working through this.