Amanda
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I am 24 years old. A new nurse in hopes of finding some support. I live far from my family and friends, in which I am having to face the sting of loss alone (that's how it feels anyway).
About my Loss:
My boyfriend of six years was my best friend. We were soul mates, if anyone even believes in that anymore. My love died from a drug overdose and I feel in some way responsible for his death. I wish I could have done more or not have been so degrading at times. I never even got to see his body before his family cremated him because I was states away when I got the phone call. His father called me and said so calmly that he had passed away in his sleep and the coroner believes it to be an accidental overdose. I couldn't breathe. The one person who was always there for me, someone I always relied on was gone just like that. No goodbye, nothing. I knew he had a history of using prescribed pain medications, but I was blinded to the fact that he was still using. The deadly combination of the pills caused him to stop breathing in his sleep and never wake up. Made me question everything about him and our relationship for the past six years. How can you think you know someone entirely and feel like you do not know them at all? We had a whole life ahead of us. We were to get engaged this summer. Married by next fall. Begin to have a family right away. Now I am left with the broken pieces of my heart and with no answers as to why?

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Losing Someone to Drug Overdose

If you've lost someone you loved due to them overdosing on drugs, let's talk about it here.See More
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Does anyone else feel pressure to always reply because you're afraid it'll be the last conversation?

Hi everyone. This is my first post here.I lost my brother in December 2024 to an accidental overdose. He passed away suddenly in his sleep. We were only a year and a half apart in age, and he was the closest person I've ever had.One thing I've been struggling with ever since is that I feel an overwhelming pressure to reply to texts and answer calls as soon as I can. If someone messages me and I don't respond right away, my mind starts thinking, "What if something happens to them before I reply?…See More
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