Thank you Alice. I know she is with God. I think God is with all of us too. I hope that I get to see her when it is my time.

I pray everyday and ask God to keep her happy. I also ask for help dealing with it. It feels like my guts are being wrenched out of me.

Sorry it has taken me so long to write back. I have been having a bad time lately and this day especially. I just want my daughter back. I want this all to be a nightmare and I will wake up and she will be here at home. I can't take it today. This is the worse day ever. I can't even look at her picture without having an anxiety attack. I keep thinking that it will be okay tomorrow but it won't. She is never coming back and I don't know how to live with that. Day by day sucks. All of the clichés in the world don't work for me right now. I miss my Sara and just want to hold her a tell her everything will be okay.

did you ever reach K? I talked to her on the phone the other night.  Poor kid is pretty much alone I guess.  She seems very down.

Thank you Alice, for the gentle words. You remember, too, that we are all here for you as well. I don't know which is worse, knowing that your loved one is dying or dies suddenly. I think they are equally bad and that we all have our own crosses to bear. While Sara lingered it was torture. She was in pain and discomfort all of the time and watching that was unbearable. She is in heaven now and at peace as is your husband. I can't imagine the grief you are going through even though I am suffering too. I pray for you and everyone that is grieving.

Thank you Alice. I appreciate the prayers and, yes, you are in mine. You all are.