Adria, I lost my husband over four years ago and I am not inspired.  I am just going through the necessary motions.  People want me to feel or they encourage me that I hopefully will find something that will bring back my spark.  Its gone.  He died.  Its so simple and yet so complex. I have tried everything to want to try and make something more out of life.  It just isn't there.  No one or nothing can offer me the feeling I had when he was alive.  Its just the way it is.