I am a retired because of disability. Radiology Tech, the specialty was Mammography. I have had my entire Cervical Spine fused due to Degenerative Arthritis. I still try to keep busy when able and volunteer. My husband was going to retire Feb 2016 and passed away from a short illness with cancer Dec 15,2015. That was the day I also started to die a very slow and lonely death. I miss him beyond and description of words. I feel there is no reason to get up and go, I am just existing.