I know exactly how you feel. I lost my mom January 10, 2011. It hurts more now than when it first happened. My life will never truly be the same without her. She was only 70 years old. Some days I think about her all day, and wish she was still here. It is hard for me too. I wait for things to get better too, and they don't get better.  Once the shock wore off, it was a lot harder. My mom always told me when I was having problems to put one foot in front of the other.  I say that to myself a 100 times a day. I still cry alot, and miss her terribly. Thank you for accepting my friends request.