Welocome to the group. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom in January 2011.  She was my best friend. I talked to her all the time.  My mom was 70 years old.  I tried to deny my moms death at first. I just couldn't accept she was gone. It is still hard for me know. I will miss her the rest of my life. I do knoe she would want me to go on and be happy, That is what I am trying to do, not always easy. hang in there.