I am so sorry Marlene.I lost my fiance too,just before we were to be married.I also live in the middle of nowhere,all alone.my heart goes out to you.~hugs~

thankyou.it's true,it doesnt get easier.I wonder if it ever will.and then the finantial problems make it that much harder.it sure is'nt something we expect to go through,this early in life.

Thankyou for your request to be friends Marlene. I'm Very Sorry to read about the Loss of your Fiance. I hope you have a Good Friend as I do, who lost her Father 3 months before I lost mine to Cancer. It's taken me almost 2 years of ALOT of Grieving Alone, but I'm finally feeling better, knowing that my Dad's no longer Suffering as Much as he did in Silence and Hopefully there is a Heaven and an Afterlife, as my Faith was Shaken to say the very least, having Lost Dorothy, "me adopted second mum" 8 months later preceeded by my uncle also named Ed and then my aunt Jean who passed 1 year after him. May GOD Bring you Comfort. Let Your Feelings Flow and Then Let Them Go. "One Day at A Time."