Machaela Whelan

Female

Lawrence, KS

United States

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About Me:
I am here.

That's what I keep telling myself anyway. I am 29. I work with preschoolers. I was the happiest I've ever been until a year ago ago. My whole life changed in an evening, and now I'm trying to figure out how to muddle together some sort of life.
About my Loss:
Evan was amazing. He said he knew he loved me in 8th grade. We didn't find each other until 12 years later. We spent 9 months together and it forever changed me. I felt more comfortable with him (and he me) than anyone I've ever met.
He passed away unexpectedly, April 14th, 2011. I found him in our bed when I got up for work.
It's a loss that I can't comprehend.

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  • Amanda Ab

    Hello, Machaela. I am sorry for the loss of your loved one. I too, lost my husband on april 28, the worst day of my life. My husband was murdered by a complete stranger over a parking space. The nights for me are also the worst of all. I cant get used to the idea of being on my own and without him next to me. How can you go on and move forward without him, when he was 100% part of my daily routine for so long. We had a son, which I try to be strong for, but it is just so hard to live with this "new" life. I so desperately want my old life back.

    Aug 15, 2011

  • Rhonda Baertsch

    Machaela,

    I met the love of my life last December and lost him suddenly on July 14th. There are no words to describe that loss we feel. I feel robbed. I feel cheated. I can't understand why God would put that man in my life, the one who meant everything to me and I should have had a whole life with, then suddenly rip him from me without warning. I try to look for meaning and a reason, and  there is none. Sometimes I am selfishly jealous of people who lost a spouse that they had years with, because at least that had that time and those memories, and what did we get? We got a taste of true happiness and then the biggest pain we've ever felt. I feel for you and I know, to a degree, your pain. I wish you well. That's all we can do for each other.

    Rhonda

    Sep 7, 2011

  • Rhonda Baertsch

    Mark was married for 12 years before we met. She stole thousands of dollars from his father, cheated on Mark, and left him devestated, yet she got 12 years with him and I got barely 8 months. How is that fair?

    Sep 7, 2011