Hi Rhonda,

I am with you 100% on the comment you made. Every day I have some sort of anger/sadness/disbelief that I won't get to see Evan's smiling face again. Evan was married for 3 years before we got together and I find myself being angry at his previous relationships for getting to spend more time than I did with him. We have known each other since 7th grade and didn't connect until we were 27. It's all very unfair right now.

I'll be thinking about you.

Hello, Rhonda.

 

I am sorry for your loss. I agree with you in all. This grieving process is sure a long and awful journey. I sometimes feel so lost and dont know, how, what, why, or who. My grief has been a rollercoster. There is mostly downs than ups. I myself, personally, have so much anger/frustration for all of the years that were taken away from us to spend with my husband. We were both young, first time parents, and looking forward to so many things to do in the future. So many memories to come and cherish. I am also still in denial and cant accept my loss. I still have that tought that he will soon come through that door and we will make up for time missed. I cant accept that we will no longer be together.

 

Hope to hear back from you soon. And know that I completely understand how you feel because I am on the same page.

Thank you for your comment. That was an awesome story. And glad to know and hear of someone who went through similar pain and found a light at the end of this "dark" tunnel. It is just so far away and so "impossible" for us to see anything good coming our way, because we are just so lost with grieve and much, much pain. I really have no hopes or dreams to come. Half of my heart was also killed that april 28 along with all of my ilusions, hopes, dreams and much hapiness.